My baby is still with me...

[chochiyo_sama]

Komet made it through the night--I seriously did not expect her to. 

She is breathing really hard, but doesn't seem to be in pain.  She wants to lie down soooo bad, but when she does, she gets right up again.  I am sure that she can't breathe while she is lying down.  I think she is exhausted. 

I am torn between calling the vet emergency number and having her put to sleep so her suffering is ended and keeping her here with me and letting her die in her own home with me...

It is so hard, though.  I cannot leave her here by herself on Monday if she isn't gone yet.  And it is the first day of the new semester and all my kids need  their schedules given to them, and all the new classes begin.

I have given myself till 9 am to call the vet today, since I don't want to wake her up on a Sunday if she can sleep in.  She was so good with me yesterday.  So understanding and kind.

The other consideration is how upset the ride in the car is going to make her.  I hate to cause her more suffering when she is already miserable and probably afraid.

Though she isn't acting afraid.

Riding in the car might just upset her to the point where she dies en route.

Sigh.

This is the dark side of kitty love.

I'm going to need sub cutaneous fluids myself as all i've done is cry since I found out it was her heart and knew for sure that nothing can help her.

I take comfort in the fact that she was a rescue cat and I gave her nine very loving years that she might not have had without me.  I just wish I had held her more.  (I did hold her a lot, but I wish I had held her more)

Comments

[sheilagh.livejournal.com]

here by way of GinMar. peace to you and to Komet. they're with us for too short a time, but they mean so much and HELP so much, with their furry, pestering love.

You poor thing. And poor Komet.

[the_godiva]

Yes. It sounds like it might be congestive heart failure.

This is such a hard decision to make.

You will to the right thing. Komet loves you no matter what.