Tomorrow I see the orthopedic dude.

[chochiyo_sama]

I have an appointment for 8:30 am.  I hope to almighty that he does SOMETHING for the pain in my knees.  It is just so tiring.  It hurts all the time.  And I am sick to death of hobbling around.

Give me a cortizone shot or give me better drugs or cut them both off and fit me with peg legs and give me a parrot.

I will be satisfied.

Today I saw my therapist and we had a long talk about defending my boundaries and dealing with people who were energy drainers.

It was tough.  I am entering the dark zone now.  I hate the time between Halloween and New Year's Day because it is so bleak.  All I can think of is all the dreams that I had which did NOT come true.

I don't know why I feel it so much during this time of year...but this is when it happens.

I actually felt kind of perky today after seeing my therapist.  I ran a bunch of stuff past her, mainly to see if she thought I had behaved appropriately in a couple of unpleasant interactions with friends.  She assured me that I had the right to choose who I did and did not associate with, especially if being in their company caused me to feel drained and unhappy.

She said only I can defend my boundaries and protect myself from negative influences.

It's very hard for me to establish boundaries, but it is something I am working on.

I have to go to sleep now--not too much else that is news worthy.