TUESDAY...Better than Monday
Apr. 19th, 2005 05:47 amARG. Nights are never long enough.
I hate getting up in the morning more than I hate going to bed at night. Of course I don't hate it enough to get my ass to bed earlier.
How did I do on yesterday's to do list? Well, let's see....
- Fill pill caddies Accomplished--though I spilled the contents of one bottle and they rolled EVERYWHERE. What a disaster.
- Line up work for the kids to do at school today Yup--sucked, but I did it.
- Get the mail HELL no. I hate getting the mail.
- Make a grocery list. Okay, I did it, but I lost it already.
- Correct everything sorted it out but never corrected a thing. Sigh.
- Buy groceries on the way home. Couldn't--forgot checkbook and wallet at school.
- PIck up the cat's prescription cat food at the vet on the way home. Could not do so...no checkbook
- Get the garbage out on the curb for tomorrow morning Yup and the bonus activity of throwing all the food that went nasty out of the refrigerator too
- Do at least enough laundry for me to have clothes to wear. Washed a load, didn't dry it. Going to school naked today. (hehehehehe. Not really)
- Put sheets on the bed so I don't have to sleep on the bare mattress again. slept on mattress again.
- Sweep and scrub the kitchen floor Nope
- Do the dishes yup
Today, I want to:
- Get groceries
- Get cat food
- Get mail (will I really do it tonight????)
- sweep and scrub the kitchen
- Do more laundry
- correct papers
- Correct the damn papers.
That's enough for today.
Something weird must be going on in my subconscious because for the third night in a row I have had very vivid, disturbing dreams. Last night I dreamed about greedy ranchers tormenting people. I was in my dream-child persona again. I'm so often a child in my dreams. And always on my own. The bad guys had my friend (who was a young Michael Burns--how HE got into my dream I do not know) hand cuffed to some pipes on the ceiling in a small room. They apparently didn't think I was threatening enough to tie because I was roaming around, mostly free. If I ventured too far, they yelled at me. I think their nefarious plan was to kill us both, but apparently there was some reason they were keeping us alive.
I found a huge tangle of rope and began untangling it. I had a weird feeling of triumph when I found that rope--that somehow I was going to use it to save my friend and defeat the bad guys. There were huge mountains, and when I walked along them, they were all made of a fine black silt, like black sand. My feet sank in it, and I was leveling it out with my feet. One of the bad guys yelled at me for messing it up because he said it was "seeded" for the cattle.
Then this particular bad guy got really mad and started swinging this big hook thing around (one of those things people use to hook and lift hay bales. Then he went into the room where my friend was and started yelling at him and slamming that hook into the walls near his head. My friend just grinned an obnoxious grin at him and winked at me. I knew he was really afraid--but he was being brave for me, and putting on a show of bravado for the bad guy--not giving him the satisfaction of knowing he was scared.
There was more, but it's late and I have to go to school.
When I woke up my heart was hammering so fast, I thought it would explode.