I can't believe my summer is literally almost over. And I have accomplished so few of my goals.
I don't know what my problem is, but I just can't seem to get myself motivated. I feel tired and lazy. There have been a couple of days where I have literally slept most of the day and most of the night. I suspect I have a little depression going on. Nothing major or severe, just a general malaise.
Part of my issue is that I have not been regular with my meds OR with my eating. I've slept in too late, taken my morning meds too late, then felt it was too soon to take the pm meds....so, I skipped them. Then, frequently, I forgot the bed time meds, or remembered them AFTER the lights were off and I was under the covers, and decided, "Ah, screw 'em."
Also, I had looked forward to my trip to Detroit to visit friends out there for months--and then I went, and five days seemed like such a long, long time....but it was over so fast. :(
Now I have no idea when I will see them again, airfare being outrageous these days....and I miss them, terribly. There are times when I regret meeting them, just because it is so painful to leave them and miss them for months till I can see them again...but ultimately, I can't regret making such precious connections.
I love them. Can't help myself.
Today I am going to attempt to get some serious work done.
I got my check in the mail yesterday, so I will be balancing my checkbook and paying my bills. I got my mail at the post office yesterday, so I have all my bills here. It’s just a matter of sorting and organizing them.
I have all my clothes from my trip to Detroit lying in the middle of the dining room floor, waiting to be sorted and laundered. I have a few things up in my bedroom that need washing too.
I haven’t washed dishes since I got home, which was Sunday. (I haven’t really cooked anything besides pancakes last night, so it isn’t as bad as it sounds.) So, I guess I need to do dishes also.
My suitcase is still in the living room and still has some odds and ends in it, so I better get that cleaned out and put away also.
My living room and dining room need to be vacuumed. I should probably run one of my swiffer duster dealies over the furniture as well.
My dining room table is buried under a bunch of stuff—I need to sort through that and get it tidied up.
I have finished a couple of my doll swaps, and those need to be boxed and mailed. One needs to have a cute little denim wrap-around skirt to finish. Then that swap will be ready to be mailed too. I have to paint a couple little milk bottles to include in the swap also. This swap was “June is Dairy Month.” Obviously, I am late on getting it mailed out. Sigh.
I’ll have pictures of these things later. Haven’t downloaded them from my camera yet.
I didn’t get much actual work done yesterday. I got groceries and put them away. Didn’t do any cooking other than making pancakes. Those pancakes tasted mighty good for supper last night, though.
I am thinking about sneaking off to see Journey to the Center of the Earth today…but I won’t allow myself to do this unless I actually get something done in the house. Tomorrow will be a wasted day as I have to go to the tattoo party at Jesse’s house, and then Ingrid and I will be going to see Dark Knight in Kasson. I imagine she will want to spend most of the day with me, which is okay—I haven’t seen her for quite a while.
Her mother has been very ill, so Ingrid quit her job and has moved up to her mom’s house. Unless her mother makes an amazing recovery, she will be staying up there till her mom passes away.
Before school starts, I need to get at least one room cleaned completely. I’ve been thinking that the small room upstairs is the best one to get done. I am going to take the bed and the doll house out of there. I want to get rid of the ratty old mattress and the noisy, squeaky box springs. I want to bring the bed downstairs and put it in the extra room there.
That small room is going to become like a supply room. I’m going to keep my fabrics, yarns, paints, and stuff like that in there. My computer room will be the work room. That’s where I will actually do my art and craft and writing work.
I think my best bet is to take every single thing out of the room, clean the room itself, wash the curtains and the windows, then put only the things I actually intend to keep in there. Which means going through everything, organizing everything, and putting things in convenient, easy-access storage.
I’m not even going to think about trying to sell my house again until I have my house in order.
Somewhere, though, I have to get hold of some motivation.
Ugh.