I am a Captive of the Clinic

[chochiyo_sama]

Well, I am on the phone with the Clinic--put on hold.  ARG.  I'm set up for three appointments already--one for the labs, one with Dr. W. (whom I love), and one with Sarah (my therapist whom I haven't seen in months).  So, here's my schedule:  Wednesday, June 15 at  2:00 Sarah.  A nice girl.  But a lot younger than me.  When I see her, I feel like I'm talking to a friend more than anything else.  I don't feel like I'm getting any closer to uncovering any deep issues or really growing.  And the time allotment--1 hour--well, I just begin to get into something and it is time to go.  It's like I have to resettle in to talking to her in depth before I actually get to anything meaty.  Then it is time to go, and I mostly feel frustrated.  I think I need an on-line therapist instead.  Heh heh.  It seems easier for me to communicate in writing than in actual speaking.  I mean--I can talk all day, that's not a problem, but to get into the nitty gritty of REAL stuff--it's easier for me to "say" it in prose.

Maybe I'll have to bring my laptop along.  I can sit in the hall and type and she can respond on her big computer.  Heh heh heh.  I'll have to suggest it to her.

My other two appointments are Tuesday, June 21--9:15 (labs)  fat free dinner night before and no breakfast and Thursday, June  23 -- 10:10 am  Dr. W.   I made them big and bold so I would see them right away and Not forget I have them.  Which would be very like me.

I slept very well for the first time in ages last night.  I didn't wake up in the night (except for once), and I dreamed, but it was mindless dreaming without any point.  If any storms rolled through last night, I didn't hear them.  Of course the air conditioner and the ceiling fan do make it difficult to hear anything else.

I slept until 9 am and it felt GREAT.  Heh heh heh.

I just called my chiropractor, and I have 15 minutes to get my lazy, unclad ass there.  (I'm still in pjs.)

Gotta go!