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chochiyo_samaI woke up about fifteen minutes ago because I had to pee. Since I was awake, I filled my pill caddy as it takes some time to do it, and if I do go to school in the morning, it will need to be filled, and it takes a good ten minutes to fill it. I am sure I will not feel incredibly perky in the morning.
I still feel pretty shitty. My stomach still hurts, and I have a back ache too--I feel tense and anxious as well. Probably because it is the end of the quarter, and I am worried about the seniors getting their senior sem papers done--I fear that if I don't go to school tomorrow they will just sit and jabber and do nothing productive.
I also fret about the other classes--if I send the movie for the writing skills kids, will they watch it? Or will they sleep or just talk amongst themselves and ignore it. Then say, "I don't remember anything about the movie because I didn't pay attention." ARRRG that makes me want to pull what little hair I have left out.
I checked the weather, and it appears that we have a winter weather advisory going on:
...WINTER WEATHER ADVISORY REMAINS IN EFFECT FROM 9 AM MONDAY TO
MIDNIGHT CST MONDAY NIGHT...
SNOW WILL SPREAD ACROSS THE AREA MONDAY MORNING...CONTINUE
THROUGH MONDAY AFTERNOON THEN TAPER OFF MONDAY EVENING. TWO TO
4 INCHES OF SNOW ARE EXPECTED. NORTHWEST WINDS WILL INCREASE FOR
LATE MONDAY AFTERNOON AND EVENING. AREAS OF BLOWING AND DRIFTING
SNOW AND REDUCED VISIBILITIES ARE EXPECTED AS THE WINDS INCREASE.
A WINTER WEATHER ADVISORY FOR SNOW AND BLOWING SNOW MEANS THAT
VISIBILITIES WILL BE LIMITED DUE TO A COMBINATION OF FALLING AND
BLOWING SNOW. USE CAUTION WHEN TRAVELING...ESPECIALLY IN OPEN
AREAS.
It would be really really nice if we just had a snowday, so I could stay home without missing any school. Then the kids would not be there to be lazy and irresponsible and I wouldn't have to lay here worrying and fretting about them.
Sigh.
Well, the best thing about a journal is that when you are anxious about something, you can write in your journal and dump the anxiety all out of your head and into the journal. Then you can just relax and sleep or whatever because you've purged the anxiety from your body.
Writing always does this for me--it is the cheapest therapy known to man, and is less painful than cutting and doesn't scar.
I can completely understand the draw some people have to cutting--it drains off some of then negativity and anxiety. I don't approve of it as a coping skill, of course, but I can certainly understand it. Good clean physical pain is so much preferrable to mental or emotional pain. It is simple and comprehensible, while emotional pain is so much more complex and muddled.
No, I am not considering cutting myself. Relax. LOL. I'm just awake and alone and miserable in the middle of the night and my mind is firing off random thoughts. I think I have almost written enough to clear my head enough to go back to sleep.
The pill caddies are filled and my bladder is empty. The cat has crept up here to cuddle some more.
I need a bath really bad. I can smell myself. Ewww. I think I had a fever earlier, but I think it is gone now.
Right now it is just the stomach pain and the back ache that are making me miserable.
I need a good chiropractor. Sigh...and maybe a nice massage.
Well, I'm going to attempt to go back to sleep now.
*blows sanitized kisses to all*
(I sanitized them so none of you gets sick too, in the event this malady is contagious.)
I still feel pretty shitty. My stomach still hurts, and I have a back ache too--I feel tense and anxious as well. Probably because it is the end of the quarter, and I am worried about the seniors getting their senior sem papers done--I fear that if I don't go to school tomorrow they will just sit and jabber and do nothing productive.
I also fret about the other classes--if I send the movie for the writing skills kids, will they watch it? Or will they sleep or just talk amongst themselves and ignore it. Then say, "I don't remember anything about the movie because I didn't pay attention." ARRRG that makes me want to pull what little hair I have left out.
I checked the weather, and it appears that we have a winter weather advisory going on:
...WINTER WEATHER ADVISORY REMAINS IN EFFECT FROM 9 AM MONDAY TO
MIDNIGHT CST MONDAY NIGHT...
SNOW WILL SPREAD ACROSS THE AREA MONDAY MORNING...CONTINUE
THROUGH MONDAY AFTERNOON THEN TAPER OFF MONDAY EVENING. TWO TO
4 INCHES OF SNOW ARE EXPECTED. NORTHWEST WINDS WILL INCREASE FOR
LATE MONDAY AFTERNOON AND EVENING. AREAS OF BLOWING AND DRIFTING
SNOW AND REDUCED VISIBILITIES ARE EXPECTED AS THE WINDS INCREASE.
A WINTER WEATHER ADVISORY FOR SNOW AND BLOWING SNOW MEANS THAT
VISIBILITIES WILL BE LIMITED DUE TO A COMBINATION OF FALLING AND
BLOWING SNOW. USE CAUTION WHEN TRAVELING...ESPECIALLY IN OPEN
AREAS.
It would be really really nice if we just had a snowday, so I could stay home without missing any school. Then the kids would not be there to be lazy and irresponsible and I wouldn't have to lay here worrying and fretting about them.
Sigh.
Well, the best thing about a journal is that when you are anxious about something, you can write in your journal and dump the anxiety all out of your head and into the journal. Then you can just relax and sleep or whatever because you've purged the anxiety from your body.
Writing always does this for me--it is the cheapest therapy known to man, and is less painful than cutting and doesn't scar.
I can completely understand the draw some people have to cutting--it drains off some of then negativity and anxiety. I don't approve of it as a coping skill, of course, but I can certainly understand it. Good clean physical pain is so much preferrable to mental or emotional pain. It is simple and comprehensible, while emotional pain is so much more complex and muddled.
No, I am not considering cutting myself. Relax. LOL. I'm just awake and alone and miserable in the middle of the night and my mind is firing off random thoughts. I think I have almost written enough to clear my head enough to go back to sleep.
The pill caddies are filled and my bladder is empty. The cat has crept up here to cuddle some more.
I need a bath really bad. I can smell myself. Ewww. I think I had a fever earlier, but I think it is gone now.
Right now it is just the stomach pain and the back ache that are making me miserable.
I need a good chiropractor. Sigh...and maybe a nice massage.
Well, I'm going to attempt to go back to sleep now.
*blows sanitized kisses to all*
(I sanitized them so none of you gets sick too, in the event this malady is contagious.)
