Komet is at peace.

[chochiyo_sama]

My friend Ingrid's husband Jim picked me and Komet up and drove us to the Carriage House animal hospital in kasson.  Ingrid insisted that he take me--insisted that I just wasn't up to doing this by myself.  I must admit, it helped me remain calm in the car.  He is such a sweet man--very quiet and not too demonstrative, but he has a very very loving heart.

Komet did not cry and scream in the car like she did yesterday.  She cried a little, but seriously, I think she was so near to death anyway that she just didn't have the strength.

She was breathing with so much difficulty--her whole body was heaving with every breath.  I could not stand the thought of her being here by herself on Monday, in the event that she hung on till then.  And she had suffered enough.

The vet's last name was Bailey, and he was the kindest and sweetest man.  He was very understanding with me, and very gentle with Komet.  I held her in my arms when he gave her the first shot, which was just a sedative to make her sleep.  He said that he would administer the second shot once she was under.  She fought that sedative hard.  She didn't struggle, but she stayed awake for a long time after he gave it to her.  I held her and told her what a good, good girl she was, and how much i loved her, and how she would feel better soon.  I petted her and gave her the back scritches that she loves so much....I would have given her a final tummy rub if she had been in the proper position for one.  I told her how much I loved her pretty white tummy and her adorable white paws, and her sweet little pink nose with the little glob of black on it like she got a glob of mud on it.

The vet gave us privacy for this.  When he came in to check on her, she was like hiccuping.   She gave one big convulsion and then sort of toppled over on her side.   I told him that I thought the sedative alone was probably going to be enough to do her in.  He got out his stethoscope and listened to her heart.  He said that her heart wasn't beating.  We just waited there for a while, and he checked her heart and lungs a few times, and there was nothing.   So he never had to give her the second injection.

She went very peacefully, in my arms.  i cried a lot, but I wasn't hysterical.  I didn't sob.  I wanted to be strong for her.  I didn't want her to be any more scared or upset than she already was.

My poor little girl.

When I got home I just sat and cried for a while...then I started my laundry so I have clothes to wear tomorrow to school.  And I got the dishes soaking in the sink.

I am trying to keep my mind and body busy. 

I miss her.  I miss her little noises around the house. 

I miss her sweet green eyes and the little mr-r-r-r-r-b? noise she makes when she wants me to come upstairs and snuggle.  This is going to be a tough week.

And I have four new preps at school.  Yay. 

Comments

[estherandmia.livejournal.com]

I´m so sorry Komet passed away.
hugs

[tripleransom.livejournal.com]

Ohhh...I'm so sorry about Komet. I wish I could say something to make you feel better. I know it hurts. I lost my dear Shadow Man to cancer nearly four years ago and it still hurts.

You can go here: http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=pets and light a candle for her. Or here: http://www.in-memory-of-pets.com/ and have a little ceremony for her. Maybe that will help a bit.

You gave her a lot of love and did your best for her.

[throw-away-game.livejournal.com]

Found you from Ginmar's LJ.

I'm so sorry for your loss, from the bottom of my heart.

You have school to keep you busy.

[the_godiva]

I took three days off when Caesar died. I still had Goliath with me, but it took months before I could welcome a new puppy. Ramses is a rescue. Then I had to let Goliath go the following January. He had a brain tumor and was starting to bite people. He also had convulsions at the sedative, we believe from the tumor.

Komet was a lucky cat. It is so good that you were there with her and she was in you arms. I'm sure that comforted her a lot.

Sometimes it is really hard to love our pets enough to know when to let go. You are a good kitty mother. You always did your best for Komet.

I have to do laundry too. I have no underwear. I have a month's worth and still I'm wearing my last pair today. I also put lentils on to soak yesterday so I'll have dinner this week. Going to do barley too. I'm trying to be more like you and cook on the weekend. I'll also have to go to the grocery story for lunches this week too.

I cried for Komet today. Caesar and Goliath will look for her from a distance. I'm sure she wouldn't want them up close and personal.

She'll join the rest of your kitties and be there waiting for you. Anyone who tells you different is a liar.

sad news

[papillon-san.livejournal.com]

I am crying with you, too, my friend. She was a good kitty and you were ALWAYS a great momma to her. I will pray for you often but now I am just crying in my heart across many miles. I can imagine Komet flying toward the sun on the back of a great white bird to where there is peace and happiness and where we will all meet again.

[ginmar.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[stardragonca.livejournal.com]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is.

[0w13.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Cho. I can tell just from reading these last few entries that you loved her so, so much. Even to the end, despite how much it hurt you, you were determined to think about what was the best for Komet. I remember so many times on YIM or MSN back in the day when you'd mention Komet's (mis)adventures. One particular one that stands out is when we talked via mic and you gave me a hilarious narrative of her playing with a Q-tip where I could, for once, *hear* the love in your voice.

You WERE an amazing owner and I'll bet Komet wouldn't have changed you for the world. Thanks to you, she lived a lovely life and died in the arms of the person she loved the mostest.

Good luck with school tomorrow-
GG

[daisycake.livejournal.com]

your entries about komet made me cry. i'm really sorry dude. i know if you can make it to school tomorrow, so can i. and it's a halfday so you get to go home early and have some cheryl-time. i'll talk to you soon ♥

[mistress-laurie.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Cho. Komet was a very lucky cat to have you as her momma, most especially when she became ill. You did the right thing. You showed your love by letting her go, no matter how much it hurt you to do so. And I'm sure Komet is thanking you for that.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[baka-kit.livejournal.com]

(((hugs)))

I'm very sorry for your loss.

[mickeyk.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss. :~( Cyberhugs if you want them (here via ginmar.

[tiny-bumblebee.livejournal.com]

I'm SO sorry :(