Saturday

[chochiyo_sama]

No response from any of the lot from ROC.  They've probably decided it is best just to ignore me.  I'm not surprised that none of them will own up to any wrong doing.  God forbid they apologize for destroying my life for no reason.

I finished sewing all the doll clothes I made for Ella's two dolls.  I took some pictures which I haven't down loaded yet. I hope to down load them tomorrow.

I pulled out some barbie patterns, thinking I will make some stuff to try on Etsy.  I cut out a bunch of stuff to coordinate.  I figured I'd try to sell it as a set.  I have a cape which is reversible--blue on one side, pink on the other, then I have retro flared leg pants in blue and pink, a simple skirt in each color, a short sleeved blouse in each color, and a reversible vest in the same colors.  I may cut out a couple of other blouses that will go with either the blue or pink pants and add them to the set too--I was thinking I might embroider some flowers on the cape and the pants and possibly the shirts.  Something to set it apart.

We'll see. 

I have sewn the cape almost all the way--I've left it open as I want to embroider on it.  Tomorrow, perhaps.

there is more to tell, but I am so tired and I just want to sleep.  perhaps tomorrow.

Comments

[the_godiva]

Did you really expect a response? Did you expect any of them to say they were sorry? An apology would be an admission of guilt or wrong-doing. That isn't going to happen. You can bet every last self-rightous asshole is a card carrying Republican who is blaming you for being too lazy to get a job and sucking off the government teat. It's your fault you're on welfare. Didn't you know? They all make me sick. If the letter has brought some sort of closure to you, you can now leave it all and start to move forward.

Do you know what my Dad's solution is to that ambassador getting murdered? We should double the defense budget and build more guns and airplanes and ships. That would put people to work and show those assholes that if they kill Americans we will blow them all to hell. That is his solution. I don't even have to ask if he's voting for Rmoney. I know he is. He's also voting for the union-busting, lying braggart Repub1%can't who is running for mayor. I pray the Democrat wins. He's an ex-congressman and he knows what needs to be done and how to get it done. He also cares more about the people, ALL of the people. Not just the developers and the wealthy donors. The Dem is a public servant. The Repub is a smug leech.

They had the guy who won *MY* $120 million lottery jackpot on the news. He's going to send his four kids to college and then get married to his fiance. He better have a prenup.

I think doing some sets is an excellent idea. And Barbie is good (although I think very difficult to sew) because Barbie and her clones are such popular dolls.

Have you thought of getting back to your writing? You used to write quite a bit. I know the writing won't generate income like the sewing will, but it would be a nice break. Your fingers must be getting sore from all the hand sewing.

[chochiyo-sama.livejournal.com]

I don't expect apologies from Jay, Susan, or Laurie--they've proved themselves to be incapable of honorable behavior. There are two or three board members, however, that I thought MIGHT express some regrets for the way this situation was played out. However, I also know they are all under the sway of Jay's charismatic charm. He's there blowing smoke into every one of their orifaces, and they haven't seen anything of me for more than a year.

So, yeah--it's mainly just me having my final say--stabbing my little scalpel right into the heart of the malignant cancer that these people are avatars of.

My hands are quite tired--the old carpal tunnel is acting up. Other than the snaps and a couple of hems, I did the doll clothes for Ella on the sewing machine. I don't find machine sewing relaxing. It hurts my back. But larger doll clothes take forever to sew by hand.

I have started a Barbie set by hand. I'm not terribly far on it--but I'll work on it again this coming week.

Tomorrow I need to do laundry again, sack up garbage, and do the basement dishes.

I see my therapist again on Thursday.

This constant state of depression kills my creativity. I try to write and nothing comes out but the whiny shit I post on my live journal. All I can do is write about how my life sucks and how unfair it is and how I didn't deserve this shit. Which is true--but this is not way to live. Not that I have a whole lot to live for, regardless.

[the_godiva]

Well, you can write it in fictionalized form. Then have the character exact revenge to each and every wrongdoer. Perhaps in a slapstick sort of way a la Peter Sellers. Or an old Vincent Price movie I saw. The Abominable Dr. Phibes. He murdered all the doctors he considered responsible for his wife's death. In comically gruesome ways. Then in the end he committed suicide by embalming himself alive. Really odd movie. The blackest of humor.

You know what they say. Write what you know.

[ihatejournalism.livejournal.com]

Also, don't forget, ROC and associated entities have a legal reason to avoid acknowledging you too. An admission of wrongdoing is pretty damning.