chochiyo_sama

I don't know what's up with me--I have not (knowingly) taken any form of drug or deprived myself of oxygen or inhaled anything mind altering....

But I have this strange, glowing feeling....it feels like LOVE....and I feel it for EVERYTHING I see and EVERYONE I know....

I feel like I want to grab hold of the planet and SQUEEZE it until it crackles.

Maybe it is because I have accomplished two of the tasks I hate the most in the entire universe--going to the post office and paying bills (both in the same day.  Eek.)  Or maybe it is because Lee's death has re-emphasized to me how brief and how beautiful life is. 

What ever it is, I am overcome by feelings of affection for everyone I know.  My eyes are dripping tears, and my heart feels twelve times bigger and squishier than normal.

And everyone looks especially beautiful to me. 

I had supper with Jim and DeAnn tonight--I took them out (because I love them)--and all through supper, I kept thinking what beautiful people they were.  And when Ingrid called, I felt an overwhelming burst of love for HER...and my cat looks simply adorable to me.  Even though she puked on the floor in the hallway I just scrubbed.  Twice.  And it was really disgusting today too, with undigested lumps of cat food and a massive clot of grayish looking hair.

Ew.

MAF, AKA Rich, came on line, and I felt myself bursting with affection for HIM!

I went on to Kevin's Watch, and every name of the people that I feel I know moderately well seemed to hum and buzz inside my head and inside my heart.  I wanted to post after every post:  "Loremaster, I love you.  Edge, I love you.  Cheval, I love you.  Creator! I love you! Duckie!  I love you!  Duchess!  I love you!  Furls!  I love you!  Avatar!  I love you!  Darth!  I love you!  Kym!  I love you!!!"  And so on and so on.

I'd feel the same way at IBDoF--maybe MORE so, since I have known them longer, and probably better.  Laurie, Brad, Kvetch, GG, Felon, Ghostie, Kilt, Hunter, Kahrey, ECM, McCormick, Tollbaby, Clong--I LOVE them.  All of them. 

And my little darlings from Cleveland...Jem, Nate, Carmen, Sue, Sarah, Samantha, Brian--I want to hug and cuddle all of you.  LOVE!!

And my punkins at school.  I love them.  My colleagues.  LOVE!  My boss---LOVE. 

My family--LOVE.

I feel like a big squishy glob of LOVE ENERGY.   I feel like I'm high.

heheheeheh

It isn't so bad. 

Life is just too short to love all the people you love sufficiently.

SMOOCH to the world.  SMOOCH to all the lovely people in it.

*expires in a puff of LOVE LIGHTENING*

heheheeh

I must be insane.   But I LIKE it.