A New Coat Rack

Rachael is the first to hang her coat on the new coat rack.



Nick admires (and perhaps ENVIES) the new coat rack.



Ryan's reward for putting up the coat rack is a Do-It-Yourself Lobotomy from Rachael.  It doesn't help to be lobotomized to teach...but it doesn't really hurt either....:LOL



This is my cat Komet.  She's a geriatric cat.  But she is still my baby.



She has the sweetest little paws.  Some of her little toe pads are pink, but others are gray.  Just like her nose--it's pink and gray.  Looks like she's got mud on her little nose.  But, that's just the way it is.



Here are the back toesies.  I just love to rub them with my fingers, but she is not a fan.  LOL.

I was working on my afghan this morning--but SOMEONE wouldn't leave the yarn alone.  Her idea of "helping" is chewing the yarn until it breaks.  So, I put it all away.  That's my leg in the foreground, with the beginning of my new afghan lying across it.  I bought that blue yarn on sale ages and ages ago.  It is such a beautiful color--very bright and cheerful.






 

A Visit to Jim and DeAnn's

I went to Jim and DeAnn's house tonight--I ordered a couple of pizzas from Country Pizza and once they were delivered, I drove out to their house.  We got an "everything" pizza and a vegetarian pizza.  The vegetarian pizza was really good.  The "everything" pizza was okay too, but I am not a big fan of meat on pizza.  Josue ate most of the little chunks of sausage off my piece.  LOL.  He's a good eater.  But the rejected bits are hurled to the floor. 

After supper, we adjourned to the living room where we watched a scintillating Bob the Builder DVD.  "Pets in Pickles" or someting like that.



Here are Swayze and DeAnn, totally aborbed in the dilemmas of Bob and his crew.  We are all in agreement that Bob and Wendy are deeply attracted to each other but for some reason can't commit.  Bob and Wendy need to stop burying their passion in fixing other people's broken shit and get to gettin' busy with each other!



Here is Swayze investigating my camera.  He is very curious about everything.



He wants the camera in this shot--you can see the desire in his eyes.  LOL.



This is later in the evening.  He is in his adorable footie pjs.  I could just eat him up.

He was awfully sweet tonight.  I got several kisses from him.  He is a very loving little boy.  I wish I could absorb a small fraction of his energy.

The moon was very bright tonight.  I heard on the radio that it is at perigee, which means that it is at it's closest to the earth at this point in it's orbit.  Jim made the mistake of showing it to Josue, who then insisted "More--More!  Mooon.  Mooooooon." 

He really got a kick out of looking at the moon. 

When DeAnn was trying to put him to sleep (in a good way), Jim went out to try to start my car, but it wouldn't start.  He had to get his little jump start machine to get it going.  It worked fine on the way home.  I hope it will start tomorrow.  I really need to get a few groceries. 

On my way home, I dropped my bills off at the post office and dropped the water bill off at the City Hall.  Glad to have that much done. 

Writing out my bills and getting them mailed is about all I accomplished today other than writing these livejournal entries.  I have to do better tomorrow.  I have to do laundry.  I need to tidy up the downstairs and do dishes.  Maybe I will bake.  I haven't baked anything since before Christmas.  I'd like to bake some oatmeal bars. 

dreams

Weird dreams again--not bad...just...WEIRD.

I only have managed to retain a couple of images.  One is of trying to get a bunch of animals put in safe shelters.  I dreamed that I was running along at the end of a long line of really big horses, holding on to reins.  other people were running alongside the horses themselves.  The horses were in pairs and they were yoked together with harnesses that had bells on them.  The bells jingled as the horses trotted. 

We ran the horses into the pasture where the pigs were kept back in the day.  (The dream was partially set at the farm I lived on from 3rd grade on.  The horses were released from the long leashes that held them all together, but they were all wearing a lot of gear.  A big group of other animals, including pigs, cows, chickens, cats, and a seal, were running along behind the horses.  When we put the horses in the pasture, the other animals split off and ran into the barn.  The other people, who seemed to be mostly cowboys, chased the other animals into the barn and were sorting them into pens. 

The seal ran into the pasture with the horses, and I went after him, trying to get it out of there.  It ran off and wouldn't come.  The horses were wandering around wearing all that tack, so i started taking it off of them.  I started with a big white horse.  It had some sort of leather braces for it's legs, and I took those off first.  then I unbuckled the saddle and got that off.  Actually, i just unbuckled it and let it slide to the ground because it was so heavy I couldn't hold it.  The last thing I took off was this big head piece thing.  It was bigger than a bridle and halter.  it was sort of like a visor.  Anyhow, after I  got it off, one of the cowboys came and took the tack. 

The horses were so huge.  My head was about even with the horse's stomach.  i realized when I saw that that I was a child.  It was weird because I didn't really realize that I was dreaming--but that I was no longer an adult.  I was wearing bib overalls--Oshkosh ones.  The cowboys took over taking off hte horses' gear. 

Then I was walking with another child down the road  toward town.  We were talking about doing chores. 

Then the dream changed and I was in a mall.  The mall was the same one I have dreamed about before.  I recognized the stores and the order they were in.  This mall doesn't exist in real life, but i dream about it from time to time.  i dreamed there was a little country style restaurant.  It had rough board floors and walls.  One room was like a bar area.  That led back into a back room that had pool tables and a bowling alley.  From that, you could go left to a dining room area with large tables for bigger groups.  From there you came back through a door where they had like a snack counter with small rustic booths.  Then you were at the cashier's desk which was near the door you entered from.  All over the place were little hand made key chains, tiny toys and small  doll-sized wooden furniture that was made right there.  The place was very neat and tidy, and I remarked on how I couldn't believe they could keep it so neat and clean with all that wood work going on.

I wanted to buy some of the little things, but there were so many cute ones that I couldn't make up my mind what to buy.  there were lots of key chains with little fuzzy cats on them.  I thought they would be perfect for toys for the barbie children.  I also thought Cora would get a huge kick out of them.  Which was interesting, since in the dream I was about 10, and cora wouldn't exist if I were 10--for that matter, jack himself would probably be either unborn or a small infant.

At some point the dream went to the Geneva Methodist Church, which was pretty run down in the dream.  There were broken floor boards and all kinds of ratty looking issues.  I don't remember much about that part, but I know we were  trying to go through a bunch of stuff.

siiiiiiick

OMG.  I feel like one of those aliens from the Sigourney Weaver show is in my stomach and is attempting to claw its way out.

I went grocery shopping this morning and had bacon and eggs at the Kernal.  I stopped at Kim's to pick up some movies for my last project in Writing Skills.  I came home and dragged all my groceries in.  Then I put them away.

I had a back ache from lugging all that shit in, so I laid down with my cat a while.  But I had to toss her off the bed when she started the "hairball hack".  NOT ON MY NEW UNSTAINED BEDSPREAD!!!!!

When I went back downstairs, I started tidying up the kitchen and cooking.  I managed to get the garbage sacked up and all the dishes put away and washed the dirty ones.  There were quite a few.  I also cleaned out the cat box. 

I cooked up some hamburger and some fettachini planning to make a spaghetti-like hotdish. 

I was just about to eat something while the noodles were cooking.  But, one spoonful and I felt so fucking nauseated--I thought I was going to puke right then and there.

I forced myself to finish the dishes and put the spaghetti ingredients in the fridge.  I can cook it more tomorrow...

I don't know what is wrong, but SOMETHING is.  I feel awful.

If I don't feel better in the morning, I am staying home.

I'm going to bed right now--so hopefully whatever it is, I will be able to sleep it off.

ugh.

Bleah

I woke up about fifteen minutes ago because I had to pee.  Since I was awake, I filled my pill caddy as it takes some time to do it, and if I do go to school in the morning, it will need to be filled, and it takes a good ten minutes to fill it.  I am sure I will not feel incredibly perky in the morning.

I still feel pretty shitty.  My stomach still hurts, and I have a back ache too--I feel tense and anxious as well.  Probably because it is the end of the quarter, and I am worried about the seniors getting their senior sem papers done--I fear that if I don't go to school tomorrow they will just sit and jabber and do nothing productive. 

I also fret about the other classes--if I send the movie for the writing skills kids, will they watch it?  Or will they sleep or just talk amongst themselves and ignore it.  Then say, "I don't remember anything about the movie because I didn't pay attention."  ARRRG  that makes me want to pull what little hair I have left out.

I checked the weather, and it appears that we have a winter weather advisory going on:

...WINTER WEATHER ADVISORY REMAINS IN EFFECT FROM 9 AM MONDAY TO
MIDNIGHT CST MONDAY NIGHT...

SNOW WILL SPREAD ACROSS THE AREA MONDAY MORNING...CONTINUE
THROUGH MONDAY AFTERNOON THEN TAPER OFF MONDAY EVENING. TWO TO
4 INCHES OF SNOW ARE EXPECTED. NORTHWEST WINDS WILL INCREASE FOR
LATE MONDAY AFTERNOON AND EVENING. AREAS OF BLOWING AND DRIFTING
SNOW AND REDUCED VISIBILITIES ARE EXPECTED AS THE WINDS INCREASE.

A WINTER WEATHER ADVISORY FOR SNOW AND BLOWING SNOW MEANS THAT
VISIBILITIES WILL BE LIMITED DUE TO A COMBINATION OF FALLING AND
BLOWING SNOW. USE CAUTION WHEN TRAVELING...ESPECIALLY IN OPEN
AREAS.


It would be really really nice if we just had a snowday, so I could stay home without missing any school.  Then the kids would not be there to be lazy and irresponsible and I wouldn't have to lay here worrying and fretting about them.

Sigh.

Well, the best thing about a journal is that when you are anxious about something, you can write in your journal and dump the anxiety all out of your head and into the journal.  Then you can just relax and sleep or whatever because you've purged the anxiety from your body.

Writing always does this for me--it is the cheapest therapy known to man, and is less painful than cutting and doesn't scar.

I can completely understand the draw some people have to cutting--it drains off some of  then negativity and anxiety.  I don't approve of it as a coping skill, of course, but I can certainly understand it.  Good clean physical pain is so much preferrable to mental or emotional pain.  It is simple and comprehensible, while emotional pain is so much more complex and muddled. 

No, I am not considering cutting myself.  Relax.  LOL.  I'm just awake and alone and miserable in the middle of the night and my mind is firing off random thoughts.  I think I have almost written enough to clear my head enough to go back to sleep. 

The pill caddies are filled and my bladder is empty.  The cat has crept up here to cuddle some more.

I need a bath really bad.  I can smell myself.  Ewww.  I think I had a fever earlier, but I think it is gone now.

Right now it is just the stomach pain and the back ache that are making me miserable.

I need a good chiropractor.  Sigh...and maybe a nice massage.

Well, I'm going to attempt to go back to sleep now.

*blows sanitized kisses to all*

(I sanitized them so none of you gets sick too, in the event this malady is contagious.)